Life in a Nutshell....
NEW YEARS!!!
| Happy new year, I got drunk as hell tonight at ryan's party... ANyway my new years resolution is to get better, and get my ass back in school where it should be. |
It's been a while.
Wow it's been a while since I've written in my blog, so much has changed.... My life in genral compleat turn around, sure it was going threw a few rough patches in the begining sure a few rough patches in my love life and family life... But now it's total chaos, my health is shot... It affects more then just school, my family seems to be deteriorating from it all as well. First I started having minor headaches, small at first but the became more frequent and violent. Soon they were full blown mindgrains, I saught help I went to my doctor. He tried all he could, but all he did failed it seemed as though nothing would stop them. So he sent me to a nerologists, he put me on countles medications some helped but nothing stopped the mindgrains. The mindgrains started affecting school I missed weeks at a time the never stopped, and now only 4 months in I've failed my year everything I do now is so my parents don't get arrested for child neglect.... Then I went to se an eyedoctor to check up on well my eyes, he found that my right eye's nerve looked pale which means it could be dead. So he sent me to another specialist, this guy told me after numerous tests of blood, and eye that if his assumptions were correct I would be blind in both eyes in about 5 years.... I don't know what to do anymore it seems so pointless, I'm fighting a battle that I cant seem to win... I know they say everyone goes threw this type of drama but still It affects me.... |
My job
I think it's over....
A flame (poem)
hoping you will return,
a torch of human emotion,
a wish yerning to burn.
I cannot and will not forget you,
this flame will never ceace,
a flame of unrequited suffering,
and an agonizing desire for peace.
My first entry
I do many things on and offline, I write stories and poetry, I draw many kinds of things that catch my intrests, I play guitar mostly black and death metal, and drive my car as often as possible. I'm working on a horror novle titled Alone in the Dark, other than my novle im cutting a solo cd and my band's cd. My bands name is Slipping Reality I play lead guitar and vocals,I have a Mitsubishi Evo. I put about 10 grand into the beast I can get it up to about 145 mph with ease although I don't try it often :) Last year two of my friends were killed in a car accident we were racing down an old dirt road on the outskirts of town we were going about I don't know 130 120 somewhere around there and we were coming to a turn. I slowed my ride down knowing I couldn't make it around that fast but Johnny my friend who was driving didn't take my hint and turned going full speed in his eclipse, he flipped the car 3 times and rammed it into the tree on the drivers side! He was crushed and ryan my other friends neck snapped on inpact......So when I go out driving im much more careful.
